I want to rush with reckless abandon into Your embrace
My first waking thought is to run to You
Within just a few minutes
I have abandoned that thought, jumped into the must do’s
And onto the daily treadmill.
I am abandoning my old mindset,
Where I am weighed down from the guilt of my fickle thoughts.
Instead I am embracing grace.
When my thoughts wander, I am learning to catch them more quickly and turn my focus back onto God, not solely the task in front of me.
I am trying to listen more, keeping my bears open for what He may whisper to me.
What He whispers tells me more about who He is, who I am, and how He wants me to bless those in my path.
Tonight, I felt prompted to go into a store where I was waiting for something on order. I knew it wasn’t ready yet, but right before I asked, the sales gal got a call with the unfortunate news her nephew has been hit by a car. I got to share how I would pray for her nephew, her & the family that all would turn out OK, and they would all be kept safe. She then shared how her other nephew has just recovered from brain cancer, and they are still emotionally dealing with that.
She needed to hear someone was praying for her. She went right back onto the phone as we left, arranging coverage so she could head to the hospital. As soon as I stepped out of the store, I prayed out loud for her.
A few years ago, I would have been chicken to do so.
A knock on the head almost two years ago changed all that. A very mild concussion seemed to knock more sensitivity to what God wants and less care for how it looks to others loose within me.
I am the better for it.
And more open to God as a result.
When I allow God to speak and move more in me, I am drawing closer to abandon…
To being one with God.
One day, beloved.
For now, I draw close.
I seek His presence.
I worship with passion.
I listen with expectation.
I open my eyes to His vision.
Where He goes, I follow.
Living a life where I abandon myself to what He has for me, I find my true self.
The one I was designed and meant to be.
So I abandon that which will distract me from my purpose: being with the one I love.
All I am is all of Yours.