Yesterday was an interesting day.
No matter what I did, the timing seemed to be just slightly off. I am sure you can relate.
But I had a strong sense that everything was happening according to His timing, despite how I was feeling.
Even when I had to head to the ER with my eldest right after I finished work.
I had an unusual assurance that all would be well, despite the circumstances.
The last time we were in the ER? We look back on it now as a comedy reel. While performing a procedure on my child, one of the nurses accidentally set off her “I am being assaulted” alerts, and two huge security guards withdrawn guns swarmed into the room while loud alerts were sounding.
All while I was sitting across the hall facing the surgical room, with no visibility.
I almost had a panic attack from the adrenaline that surged with that sudden incident.
And do you know not one staff came to reassure me my child, under anaesthetic in that room, was okay?
I overheard a nurse tell another staff what had happened on the other side of the hall a few moments later, after the security men left the room, and I know it was His timing to help me calm down and breathe again.
The rest of the night, the communication was limited or non existent. Eight people treated my daughter in total, and only one was partly helpful to help us learn what was going on and what to do moving forward. In fact, we had to head back the next day to get the paperwork necessary for my child to miss school, as the doctor immediately left after the procedure without completing it, despite our obvious requests beforehand.
God knew that day I needed a physical reminder He was with me, and put it on the heart of one of my heart sisters to show up and sit with me as we waited to be discharged. He knew I needed a person in my corner so I could step into the strength He had for me in that night’s battle.
So the first thing that came to mind this time was to raise up as much prayer from my family to shift the atmosphere before we left the house.
And God showed Himself mightily as we did. We had a lovely doctor who has chosen an alternate treatment to what we were expecting, and who wants to check in with us in 48 hours to ensure it is working.
God knows what we need in each moment we face, Beloved.
All He is is more than enough for anything we could ever face.
I am learning to trust Him beyond what I dreamed possible when I first became a Christian.
It is hard to put your child on the altar when He asks it of us, when fear is rising and your mind tries to take you into all the possible nightmares that could happen in an emergency.
I have found He has been more than enough in every emergency I have faced. Losing my baby when I miscarried. Comforting a sudden widower over the loss of his wife, my husband’s sister. When the sounds flatline despite your prayers. Not knowing where next week’s grocery money was going to come from. The times my baby could hardly breathe. When I hadn’t slept for 5 nights, 6 days straight when in hospital for unknown reasons, and thought I was going to lose my mind. Hearing the word cancer spoken over family members. Holding my best friends when their marriages came crashing to rock bottom in times of crisis.
In each of these situations, God revealed Himself so powerfully I stand in awe at His timing, His provision and His Presence.
Like the Israelites in the desert, He meets all my needs.
My covering will not wear thin or fail to protect me, for He Himself cloaks and shields me.
My provision will come. For just as manna fell from heaven, so does He open His storehouses for His children.
My brokenness will be made whole, for God is in the constant restoration mindset.
He continues to make the ashes of our hurt and shards of our breaks into something more beautiful than we can see in during the transition process, because of His great love for us.
What I need to live the life He has for me, He ensures I have when I put my trust in Him.
He is the God of the constant now. He was with me in the past. He promises to be with me in the future, and on into heaven.
But He is fully here, right now, beside me, within me, guiding and reassuring me as each moment brings a new need to light.
Whether the need needs to be uprooted from deep inside to reach the new freedom He desires for me….
Whether the need lies in His comfort as the need reveals itself to be linked to loss….
Whether the need is for a physical touch, a calming of the mind, filling up my love tank, refueling my body with food, the Word or rest….
I know without doubt He is for me.
And He is more than enough in every moment I have faced, am facing and will face yet to come.
Ask Him for a deeper revelation of His love and care for you. Pray for dreams, visions, confirmation, and watch His love in action reveal itself to you in your need.
All of You is more than enough for all of me, for every thirst and every need. You satisfy me with Your love, and all I have in You, is more than enough.