I need You, oh I need You.
Every hour I need You.
My one defence, my righteousness,
Oh God, how I need You.
– Matt Maher
Sleep has not been as restful as it usually is for me these past few days.
And it isn’t because of late night snacking, or staying up to read.
The weariness I feel has come from inwardly wrestling with the emotions stirring from recent events.
Illness. Change. Appointments. Death. Hurtful words. Facing down giants.
While I wasted some time wrestling with a few things longer than I should have, I came to realize that none of what happened to me shocked God, at all.
For He knows exactly how things are for us here on earth, and how desperately we all, even on our blandest or dullest of days, need Him.
We need not only to be rescued from our circumstances but redeemed from our pasts and restored from ourselves.
We need God to rescue us out of what we may be facing, which might appear as a molehill to those looking in but to us feels like Mount Kilamanjaro.
We need God to remind us He has cleansed us from the past we have brought to the cross, and laid there.
We need God to restore us, as He counters every way the enemy has intended for us to fail or be led off the intended path He has for us, and rebuilds the way for us to make it there.
We need God when the words fail to come under the weight of heavy grief.
We need God when it’s hard to think clearly when sudden news shocks us to the core.
We need God when the tears refuse to stop from our conviction over what we mishandled or bungled without Him.
We need God when the cheque book of our souls has more withdrawals than deposits in our busyness.
We need God when all we really want to do is hide under the covers and shut the world out for a while.
Oh how we need You.
You knew we would need You so and planned to meet that need through Jesus.
Because You cannot help but have compassion on those You love.
You not only met the need, You meet us in our need.
Face to face.
I can place my trust in You because You are with me, moment by moment, intimately intertwined.
Together I can make it through anything when I admit my need for You, and invite You to meet my needs through You.
And that GOOD NEWS is the reason I can rest well at night.
For my circumstances may or may not change, but the One who holds me in His loving embrace never will.
Love will hold me through all things.
I can rest in that truth.
I am my Beloved’s and He is mine.
Oh, how I need You!