when you physically think you can’t take much more, fix your eyes on Him

Several years ago, I ended up with extreme pain in my side, intensely bad enough I could only crawl, and threw up a few times.  Now I am not prone to vomiting at all, so for me, this was a signal something serious was going on in my body.  I headed to emerge for the beginning of a seven day journey that I never anticipated ever happening to me.

After some tests, poking and prodding, and a lot of waiting, the tests were undetermined. They didn’t seem to know what was going on with me, other than I was in a lot of pain.

But that wasn’t the worse part.

The gal on the bed next to me (I was in a four bed room) had just had surgery before I was admitted, and like me, was on an iv.  Her iv battery went off every ten minutes around the clock starting my first night there, AROUND THE CLOCK. We told the nurses, but not one seemed to care enough to switch the unit or fix the problem.

That’s right, every ten minutes the battery beeped for about two minutes. Just enough to keep me almost constantly awake for the next six days.

Not only was I on an iv diet and in pain, I now couldn’t stay asleep. I could try, but the moment that battery alarm went off? I was wide awake again.

I thought I would lose my mind.  I was jittery, anxious and freaked out.

I asked God to intervene, and initially got quite mad when He didn’t. Then it occurred to me to ask God why I was there. And He told me – to pray.

So I did. For each of the women in the room with me. If I wasn’t in the washroom, visiting with family or chatting with my room mates, I was reading my bible and praying.

The morning the other gal got discharged, on the seventh day of my stay, a new doctor came in to chat with me.  He took one look at my chart, asked me one question, and discharged me from the hospital.

I still don’t know what caused the pain that put me in the hospital,  but I learned a valuable lesson during my time there.

God was and is more than able to keep me on solid footing when I keep my eyes fixed upon Him. In every circumstance. For He is a permanent, unshakable foundation for us to depend upon and cling to. He was the only light shining in that dark time.

If you too are physically stressed out?

  • Trust that He will hold you through this season in your life.
  • Be honest with Him about how you are feeling.
  • Hide His Word in your heart, like these verses below

But God, dear Lord,I only have eyes for You. Since I’ve run for dear life to You,
take good care of me. Psalm 141:8 MSG

Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we’re in. Study how He did it. Because He never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—He could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now He’s there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility He plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls! Hebrews 12:2-3 MSG

Worship song for the days when you feel surrounded by darkness:

He is the Light –  by Bryan & Katie Torvalt

Today I shared about physical duress, tomorrow I will chat about emotional ones which can impact our mental health and wellness.

#hopefortheharddays #hopeinHisPresence

HIHP fixed on You





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