“Forget about what’s happened; don’t keep going over old history.
Be alert, be present. I’m about to do something brand-new.
It’s bursting out! Don’t you see it? There it is! I’m making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands.” Isaiah 43:18-19 MSG
Friend, constantly looking back in the rear view mirror is exhausting, isn’t it?
But it can be hard to break an old habit or pattern without making a major gear shift in our thinking first.
On the days when my past tries to replay my mistakes and painful moments I would rather forget, I bring those thoughts to the cross, and ask for His perspective, His direction on what to do.
And I can do so each and every time because He is not only faithful to meet me there, but He has something new in store for me. Life where there was stagnancy, joy where there was mourning, love where there was loneliness, forgiveness where sin abounded.
Press into His Presence on those days when you can’t sense which way is up, friend. He is the Light for your path, the Healer for all your wounds, the Faithful One forever!
#freedomawaits #hopefortheharddays
KARLA LEES 
I needed this today. An uncle I’d not talked to since 1995 when my Mummy died at 63 years old, answered my Easter phone call. During the course of the call he confessed to knowing I (an adopted child was being abused as a child). Abuse has been a part of my entire life even to this day except I’m not beaten anymore. I was calm when he told me. But today at 2am when I rose to pray till 5am I couldn’t really breathe well. Then I started crying and couldn’t stop. I cried till my head was thumping. People knew and no one saved me. It set the course of my life all the way to the type of men who chose me. They continued the abuse. One still is. I feel ugly, unworthy, as if I were only born to be abused. I don’t understand why GOD didn’t rescue me. It’s difficult not to look back when finding out only Sunday that I was a mere adopted reject scalded, beaten with baseball bats and other horrid things. Pastor Tim Burt wrote a devotion last night about people enduring Church hurt. It basically said grow up get over it move on. As if it was some light affliction.. I’d gone to Church counseling, what I’d endured had been discussed. Then I began to be treated with the same callous your just adopted behavior till I left. Shame, anxiety attacks, agoraphobia and depression has caused me to hide for 13 years. Yet we’re told not to look back as if it didn’t and isn’t happening? I’m lost and I don’t understand 😭
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Hi Rynata, let me just start by saying thank you for being brave enough to share some of your story with me. I am sorry to hear that you are in a lot of emotional pain. Adoption can be both a gift and a whole lot of pain, wondering why, and feeling of abandonment all rolled into one. And as someone who has experienced molestation and emotional abuse, I can say that abuse is never acceptable towards anyone. Here is what I believe God would have me say to you.
You are NOT defined by being an adopted child in your earthly family. He has made you His child, and a full inheritor of heaven. Your eternal future is set, secure and wonder filled!
You are NOT defined as a victim. God sees you as a Victor and Overcome through Jesus
You are NOT defined as unseen. God knew and purposed you even before you were born, sees you at all times, and is present with you.
The lies of false identity are what the enemy wants you to focus on, so he can keep you from God’s purposes for you.
If you are currently being abused, leave. As fast as you can. Especially if your life is at risk. I don’t say this lightly, but because YOU matter to God, friend. YOU are His beloved, and the one He adores.
I would also encourage you to seek spiritual freedom through Cleansing Stream or Sozo. You can find out about them online. I have been very freed from my past, so that now it is mainly that. A chapter that I don’t necessarily go back to, but it is part of my history. One where I now know God was with me, protected me even more than I realized, and has released me from the pain, shame, fear and feelings of unworthy, dirty, alone and unwanted.
So I do not share that it is easy to put things in the past and move forward, especially when trying to do so in our own strength. By spending time with God, asking Him to reveal any lie we are believing, renouncing our agreement with that enemy lie, God breaks its hold off of us, and fills us with more of Himself.
I am praying for your freedom, sister.
As well, someone close in my family suspected there was something going on with my bring abused, but didn’t know how to address it. Today, these topics are brought into the light more than they used to, but still not enough as abuse continues to happen. I pray you are able to forgive your uncle, and release yourself from any bitterness that may take root if you do not.
I pray that in His strength, you are able to do all He leads you to do to be safe, and be set free.
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Thank you 🤗❤️🙏🏼
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