This is me. Waiting for my eldest who’s at yet another medical appointment. Stressed & weighed down by concern about:
✅Our family’s health.
And today, as I got out of bed, I hit the wall. The wall of self came crumbling down, as I fully got that I can’t do this life on my own, carrying the weight of everything.
And I was never designed to do so, yet that red herring is one of the best weapons the enemy has used against me.
☕God comforted me with Matthew 11:28 in my devotion today, and so I looked up the full passage He was reminding me of, as Holy Spirit redirected me to the Truth it holds:
🌿”Are you weary, carrying a heavy burden? Come to Me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis. Simply join your life with Mine. Learn My ways and you’ll discover that I’m gentle, humble, easy to please. You will find refreshment and rest in Me. For all that I require of you will be pleasant and easy to bear.”
📖Matthew 11:28-30 TPT
🙏So here I am, God. Weary from the battle as I have limped along on my own, stubbornly trying to pull my life along instead of surrendering to Your leading. By refusing to follow Your ways, I ended up a mess within from keeping all this weight hidden within. No more. I lay all I am, all I have, all I hope for, all I love here at Your feet. Heal me, direct me, use me as You choose. I offer myself as a willing partner in this life You have blessed me with. Thank You for all the many blessings You have poured upon me and in my life. As I pour out my heart like water before You, I am so grateful that You not only dry my tears, You store them. And I suspect just as You turned water into wine, those tears will become something beautiful & a blessing in Your Kingdom. I humbly bow in awe and wonder at the fact You care so much for me, and are always waiting for me to come running. With no judgement, only love. 💕Amen.