🌿”God, investigate my life: get all the facts firsthand. I’m an open book to You; even from a distance, You know what I’m thinking. You know when I leave and when I get back; I’m never out of Your sight. You know everything I’m going to say before I start the first sentence. I look behind me and You’re there, then up ahead and You’re there, too— Your reassuring presence, coming and going. This is too much, too wonderful— I can’t take it all in!
Is there anyplace I can go to avoid Your Spirit? To be out of Your sight? If I climb to the sky, You’re there! If I go underground, You’re there! If I flew on morning’s wings to the far western horizon, You’d find me in a minute— You’re already there waiting! Then I said to myself, “Oh, He even sees me in the dark! At night I’m immersed in the light!” It’s a fact: darkness isn’t dark to You; night and day, darkness and light, they’re all the same to You.”
🎵”Well I sweat in the heat of the battle and I fought through the dust & the shadows. Oh, You never left my side, never left my side, no. And I stood at the top of the world, I swam through the depths of my soul. No matter what I find, no matter what I find, oh. Drought or famine, high and low…
Chorus: Wherever I go – oh, You’re gonna find me there. Wherever I go – oh, You’re right beside me there. In the rising flame, even in the pouring rain, even in the flood, I’m safe oh oh oh. You go wherever I go, wherever I go!
You hold all the pieces together, You bring me strength in the desert. Oh, You defend my soul, You defend my soul. No height, no depth, no grave – nothing on earth can keep You away. Oh, You’re my only hope, You’re my only hope. Life and death, this truth I know…
My sister in law would have been 50 years old today. The one I was the most like, with our mutual loves of administration, organization & cats.
Mental illness took her from us far too early, yet I know I will see her again one day. Which doesn’t mean that she isn’t missed at every holiday, celebration or milestone in our family.
One aspect of community which doesn’t get talked about enough is mental wellness. And we need to. Coz many of us have hidden our emotions away for far too long. Whether childhood trauma, abuse, hormonal or chemical imbalances – we all need to hear that even if we are struggling, we matter & have value to our community.
My support circle is fully aware that I am not perfect, but I always try to be present any time they need me, even if it is by phone or text as I am too far away.
Coz when one of us is hurting, we all are when community matters. Knowing someone cares helps.
@wondherful is one voice of someone making a difference in the mental wellness battle. Her story is super inspiring.
The book Redefining Anxiety by @johndelony was super helpful to me as well as refreshingly honest.
@itsjuliwilson & @kaylasteck are widows who have lost their husbands to mental illness. Their feeds on Instagram talk about the struggles of being the ones left behind.
Speaking with a counselor or excellent physician can be helpful. I have done so regularly with one or the other, and in one season both, as well as maintained a few close relationships where we can tell each other anything, and know we are loved just as we are.
If mental illness has affected your circle of family and/or friends, leave a 💙 in the comments, and please know that you are not alone.
I helped get a friend who overdosed in high school to hospital in time to make a difference. My boyfriend at the time’s good friend did not speak up, and didn’t make it through his battle. I have been acutely aware of the battle for mental wellness since I was a young teen.
If mental illness is currently affecting you personally, leave a 🙏. Please know that I have been there (depression & anxiety) and there is no judgment here, friend. I will pray you will find the right community to best support you. And know that I’m sending you a 🫂 and will keep you in my prayers.
Author Elizabeth Musser has written a magnificent story of two strong women with a generation between them and a mutual love of horses.
Barbara Dale, beloved grandmother to Allie, passes away, and Allie is left to sort out not only the family property which has unexpectedly been stolen out from under her, but the hidden history her grandmother left for her to discover after her death.
And what a history it is!
Love, drama, heartbreak, suspense with past & current history are all written together in this family saga of a good read. And of course, lots about horses!
Both of the female main characters are exceptionally well written, and have an emotional depth which made reading their intertwining stories a delight as the plot unfolded.
My favorite parts involve the moonlight rides and the love of a remarkable couple, and the miraculous double discoveries, one of which completely shocked me, in a good way!
PS. In fact, this book is so well written that even though I was given a copy of this book to review by Graf-Martin Communications, I purchased a copy so I could support the author!
When I get upset or angry after being hurt, I used to immediately take action. And almost always made things worse.
God has been reminding me of late that He is a God of ACTION, and He is more than ABLE to not only comfort me, but battle for me as He actively involves Himself in whatever situation I invite Him into.
So I have been learning to not impulsively act when I am hurting or pissed off, but to wait until I can talk the situation over with Him. For every time I do, He reveals something I wouldn’t otherwise have known, and actively directs me on how to respond.
I received an email a while ago which really upset me. And my usual initial surge of upset indignation and irritation immediately swelled to full alert. But I didn’t let it out.
I gave it over to God, and waited for His direction. I went to a wiser person who was aware of the situation, and asked them to help me wait to respond until I heard from Him.
I have not needed to respond, actually. God took it out of my hands and highlighted the issues higher up the chain, where they needed to be addressed. GOD moved into action on my behalf, and removed me from the situation. Not how I would have initially handled it, but exactly how it needed to be dealt with.
As His daughter, I need to trust God will move into ACTION on my behalf for the best results for me.
🌿God, as I look back at this past week, I can see how You have been revealing truth to me. Verses which I have encountered like a previously undiscovered patch of wildflowers or growth of bushes – there whether I pay attention to them or not, for Your Word is forever. Yet how delighted You are when we praise You once we see You in a fresh way.
I am so grateful that You not only made the way Home possible through Jesus, You shine Your Spirit upon the areas I need to give over to You to be set free, restored and developed as You desire.
And as I give over these highlighted areas, such as developing patience, You show me a new picture of the depths You will go to connect, guide and love me through to victory.
Even before I knew I needed You, You knew my need and laid Your love & very life on the line for me.
Once & for always, forever & ever, You showed us just how much You valued us by kicking sin in the gut & defeating death. Light defeated darkness, shining brightky across time and creation in a public, permanent display of Holy Love.
So when this day turns out to be exhausting, frustrating, stress full and I am desperate for a clean start? You reassure me You already won the battle, and have made a way though it for me into the victory awaiting me as I follow You.
Wide open space is up ahead. Even when I can’t yet see the way, Your promises remind me You’ve already prepared the path and You’re walking each step beside me.
So I am learning to relax & trust You when the fog and/or tears blur my vision, as I take You at Your Word and step out in patience & hope on these hard days.