finding spiritual whitespace

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There are times when you pick up a book, and you really have no idea what you are getting into.

This is one such book.

After the introduction, I will confess I was teary eyed with relief.

I am not alone in how I feel.

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By the end of chapter 6, I was not the same.

I was more at rest after underlining, rereading and journalling that I have been for years, possibly ever.

You see, God is both the giver and designer of how we are to rest.

With Him…

and

In Him…

With Him, and He with me.
I am never alone.
He is always with me,
despite what feelings or circumstances may dictate.

In Him, and He in me.
His presence is in this temple.
He lives in me,
As I choose to hide myself away in Him.
My refuge, my comfort, my shield.

Within.

He lives in me, and I within Him…..

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We reunited on a deeper level after a few chapters of accepting His love for me,revealing a new truth to me as we went.

Every single thing I have ever lived through
matters to Him.

For I am His, and He is mine.
Beloved.

I can hardly wait to learn what freedom and understanding He has for me in the next few chapters!!!

not alone

I have been “off” for the past week.

I never realized how much food, or cutting out some of what I used to eat, impacts my overall wellness. Hangry I have been used to from when I am later eating than I should, but hangry meeting fasting- I was so not prepared for.

Add a large project, technical glitches, miscommunication and a hangry partial faster together- and you get my day.

The real issue underlying it all was not my hunger.

Sure, the grumbles were annoying, but I coped.

It was not so much the technical issues, or the timing of the project.

It was even so much the need to constantly double check everything.

The real issue began to surface when i waved my daughter off on the bus for her weekend getaway, kissed my hubby goodbye for his man camp overnight, and finally saw my son head up north to visit a friend.

I realized it was going to just be me.

and tonight, after the day I had today, I wanted company.

I didn’t want to be alone.

I ran my errands, picked up dinner & finally got home to work for another hour or so.

Then God nudged me to put on a particular album.

and He reminded me, through one of my fave songs,
I AM NOT ALONE (via Kari Jobs)

When I walk through deep waters
I know that You will be with me
When I’m standing in the fire
I will not be overcome
Through the valley of the shadow
I will not fear

I am not alone
I am not alone
You will go before me
You will never leave me

In the midst of deep sorrow
I see Your light is breaking through
The dark of night will not overtake me
I am pressing into You
Lord, You fight my every battle
And I will not fear

You amaze me
Redeem me
You call me as Your own

You’re my strength
You’re my defender
You’re my refuge in the storm
Through these trials
You’ve always been faithful
You bring healing to my soul

And
my soul leaped within me
as I sang with full abandon
how grateful I am for Your love:
Always there for me.
Always with me.
Always shielding, loving, caring for me.

Despite the circumstances you may find yourself in today,
whether its your drama
or the overflow of some one else’s.

No matter how I may fail, literally,
God, You are there to pick me up again, set my feet on the solid Rock of Your Presence, and guide me into new deep waters.

You have always been more than enough each and always will.

Spirit, prompt me to keep my eyes fixed on You, no matter what my day

My He always do the same for you as wemll

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alone or lonely?

Which do you feel more like:
alone
or
lonely?

Alone is the absence of people,
while lonely is the absence of connection. – Camerin Courtney

I have learned, the hard way, to listen to my mood within when I am on my own, and how to discern which I am feeling in a solo moment.

It is harder to feel alone in a crowd, but very lonely? Quite common.

It is easy to feel alone and lonely when you are skipped over in a group, or ignored in conversation, especially with strangers in close corners.

alone is a state of being
lonely is a mindset

alone can sometimes be fixed simply by being with other people, where loneliness can be harder to cope with

There are two truths I use to combat when I feel lonely, or all alone:

Deuteronomy 31:6
God will never leave me or forsake me.

With Him, I am never alone.

As a child whose birth father decided family life was not for him, then unexpectedly passed away when I turned three, abandonment & feeling unwanted was an identity I wore for far too long.

The verse above helped me wear a confidence I now have for eternity… I am never ever ever going to be alone.

I am FEEL alone at times,but that verse reminds me of the truth-
I AM never alone, forevermore.

But how do you handle feeling overwhelmed with loneliness?

Do I struggle with this?
Oh yes, too often it seems.
Starting a new job, switching churches, moving to a new neighborhood…
I don’t handle transitions very well at first, on the inside.

In fact, I still struggle with this one more than feeling alone, and recently God reminded me of one of my other lesser known fave verses in His Word…

Psalm 68:6
6A God sets the lonely in families…

And I was instantly reminded of how He answered the prayer of my heart from a very young age… my deep desire for sisters.

I now have the best sisters any girl could ask for.

They are truly additions to my family.

I believe Jesus found the same connection with His disciples.

My sisters help me make it through some days by:
encouraging me to keep moving my hubby & kids & parents,
keep challenging myself at work,
cheer me on when I sing or write,
and love up on me when I need it.

When you laugh, cry,
support & help one another in
both the best & the hard times,
break bread, eat Thai, drink Chair,
share a love of books, music,
and gratitude for all we do have
together…
you become family.

Being adopted by God though Jesus into God’s forever family
has dramatically lessened my core loneliness when I keep it in mind.

I try to use the Word to help me let go of what I want to and replace it with what I need to:

Inviting His Presence into all my nows.

Welcoming His love through those He chosen to show me love.

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Its time to #WordUp & keep the Word close at hand, letting God fill the gaps & strengthening us as we walk out His truth.

We are never alone when we are His child.

He shows me His love through those who love me.