when counting sheep doesn’t help you get the sleep you need

Breathing in, breathing out. In the quiet, I can hear my heart beat as my body is overcome with its need for rest as I lay down. Another coughing fit takes over, and I find myself desperate for my next fresh burst of air. God, how I need You to intervene. I am now soContinue reading “when counting sheep doesn’t help you get the sleep you need”

Presence

The past few days, I have felt overwhelmed physically. A few of my sore muscles are having a hard time giving up their tension, despite prayer and the efforts of my physio & massage therapist. Sleeping on my left side is foreign to me, I have always been a back or right side sleeper, andContinue reading “Presence”

on the road to Bethlehem

We left off with Joseph & Mary on the long trek to Bethlehem. Still on the road… I wonder if Mary asked,¬† “Are we there yet?!” as her womb started sending signals it was full and had had enough. I wonder how sick of leading the donkey and being on his feet all day JosephContinue reading “on the road to Bethlehem”

when the road seems long

Some of you wandered for years in the desert, looking but not finding a good place to live. Half-starved and parched with thirst,¬†staggering and stumbling, on the brink of exhaustion. Psalm 107:4-5 Some of us wake up feeling this way, don’t we? On the brink of sheer exhaustion, running on empty, in desperate need ofContinue reading “when the road seems long”

dry & weary land

There are places within that are parched, dry, weary. Broken places I have buried for too long. Hopes & dreams I wait for. Wounds that have been partly healed, a crack still open to keep the infection brewing. There is no 100% cure without God. None. You see, the layers within cannot be reached toContinue reading “dry & weary land”

fighting the bluez

Today was a mental fight day. I couldn’t take too long off, or I knew I would lose the battle. I find that when I am in recovery, that period between fully sick and fully well, I am not at strong mentally with my defenses. Certainly, extra napping and strong medications may be part ofContinue reading “fighting the bluez”